Ce que c'est que de vivre la claustrophobie

I could feel the air thinning around me, and I couldn't breathe. My vision was littered with dark spots and I could feel sweat dripping down my neck. Everything seemed louder and more intense. At that point, not realising I was having a attaque de panique, I thought I was going to die.

What is claustrophobia?

An estimated 10% of people in the UK are affected by claustrophobia during their lifetime. It's usually defined as the irrational fear of confined spaces, often experienced even when there is no obvious or realistic danger in a particular situation. All kinds of different situations can trigger claustrophobia, including lifts, trains, planes, cars and tunnels.

After that first incident on the Tube, I began to experience these attacks more frequently. I started getting the bus across London just to avoid the Underground, so it would take me ages to get anywhere. I hated tunnels and lifts. Unfortunately, my office was in a high-rise building, so every morning I would listen to music and try to ignore the feeling of the walls closing in.

"One may experience anything from mild discomfort to overwhelming panic in spaces such as lifts, anywhere with crowds, public toilets or even revolving doors," says Dr Audrey Ng, a consultant psychiatrist at Hôpital Priory de Roehampton. "Having MRI scans for some people is extremely difficult to contemplate if they suffer with claustrophobia."

The symptoms vary, but can include excessive fear, sweating, flushing or chills, nausea, trembling, heart palpitations, difficulty breathing, feeling faint or vertige, récurrents, or a tightness in the chest.

"Severe claustrophobia can also cause people to dread activities that may be confined. It can also result in a fear of fainting, a fear of losing control or even a fear of dying," Ng says.

There's no one clear cause, and it can come about seemingly randomly. However, past trauma can play a part in developing claustrophobia.

"Not uncommonly, the onset of claustrophobia can be traced back to a traumatic event in a person's history," Ng explains.

"Often this will have happened in childhood but can occur at any age. As an example, adults having had an experience of being stuck in a lift or on a train in a tunnel may develop a fear of them, depending on the associations that they give to that event, which can be traumatic."

Other known predisposing factors are having been bullied or abused as well as being trapped.

"Having a first-degree relative with claustrophobia makes one more likely to develop the condition," Ng adds. "This suggests that genetics play a part, and there is also the possibility of the person developing learned behaviours or more complex associations when living with their relative's anxieties."

For years, I thought I was losing my mind. I didn't tell anyone about being claustrophobic or having panic attacks, knowing how silly and illogical it seemed. I knew it was unlikely that I would get stuck in a lift and die, but it didn't stop me from being terrified. It was also exhausting to feel anxious every day and have to plan out ways to avoid small spaces.

"Claustrophobia can have a very real impact on a person's life because there are a variety of everyday situations that can feel very confining for someone suffering from claustrophobia," says Dr Elena Touroni, a consultant psychologist and co-founder and co-CEO of My Online Therapy. "Attaques de panique are common which can lead to the avoidance of situations which provoke feelings of l'anxiété."

Depending on its severity, it can affect many different aspects of daily living. "It could be problematic for someone to manage how to get to work if they cannot manage public transport or crowds," adds Ng. "The fear of using confined public toilets may make it impossible to stay at work."

Some people may avoid socialising if they're afraid others will notice their anxiety and not understand. "These are just a few examples of the possible day-to-day impact of this condition," Ng says. "One's self-esteem and confidence may slowly be eroded as the fear leads to avoidance and inevitably a shrinking of the person's activities, social network and even environment if not treated."

Although many people with claustrophobia avoid small spaces, this can actually make things worse. "It will provide temporary relief but in fact will make the problem worse in the longer term as more and more situations and spaces are avoided," Ng says.

La thérapie cognitivo-comportementale (CBT) is an effective treatment for claustrophobia and is focused on reducing some of the distortions in thinking. Desensitisation and exposure therapy can be part of this. Patients often benefit from behavioural experiments which allow them to be able to return to previous activities successfully.

"In exposure therapy, your therapist will work towards gradually exposing you to your fears. So at first, this might involve just looking at pictures of tight spaces - ultimately working up to you being inside a tight space," Touroni says.

In the UK, IAPT (Improving Access to Psychological Therapies) can provide this and you are able to self-refer - you can find details and refer yourself to your local services by registering with the Patient Access app. If needed, your GP can also assess you and help get the right treatment in place. You can also book private talking therapy if you would prefer.

"In some cases, a specialist in mental health may be needed if the situation is more complex," Ng adds. "This is where psychiatrists work in tandem with therapists to try to achieve the best outcomes in partnership with the patient."

Talking therapies can be effective on their own or in combination with medication, which can help with the underlying anxiety or low mood.

For me, taking medication and undergoing CBT helped hugely and have enabled me to cope with generalised anxiety too, although I still struggle with small spaces.

Organisations including Anxiety UK et Mind offer advice and support if you are experiencing claustrophobia, anxiety or any other mental health issues.